Sta.sh
I think that the people that are still here deserve to know the truth.
It's not going to be so short, but I think that this is the best way to explain myself.
Ever since I remember myself I loved to draw.
as a kid I've tried to start different stuff, but always gave up at some point coz i weren't good enough,
I was always searching for cheering and love, and missed the real point of fighting for getting better,
what made me feel pretty shitty and it became a real problem when I were at middle school,
I were afraid to speak to people coz I felt like a looser.
Then at the age of 14 I found out about the internet and forums,
and i fell in love, it made me feel important, something i never felt before.
Pretty fast I found out about the computer graphics.
Since I had a lot of time, coz I were sick all the time and haven't went to school for nearly a year,
I started to put this time into getting better at the graphics area, I made good friends, the best of them was Tommy aka ~kontrastt and together we joined dA, it was 2005, and i were 15.
Pretty fast I got better, and until 2008 I got 2DDs, participated at ~daGroove and founded with Tommy the street art team ~WEHEARTWORLD
I reached 2600 watchers, more than 100,000 pageviews, and almost 1,000,000 views.
I received a lot of comments from people all around the world about how they love my art and how it makes them feel happy.
It was the first time I felt that I'm doing something good, for me and for others. It was the biggest success in my life.
And then I joined the army for 3 years, and left my artist part back at home.
when I were at the army I tried to start printing shirts with my art, but I didn't really had time to sell them.
I dreamed about the day I'll get released from the army so I'll start my own brand "daskull", using my arts.
since i never liked to work as a freelancer, I believed that the best possible thing for me will be creating my own products.
when this day finally came, 4 months ago, I came back to find out that 99% of my watchers are not longer active,
but I still had this dream, that i can make it with my art and new people will come. I tried to start drawing again, new stuff,
but nobody really cared. I made pools to see what people would like me to print, and printed it, but no body cared...
as the last chance I went to a shirt store at the mall, so i'll at least get the wasted money back, but nobody really buy them even there.
each time I uploaded new art, or message I found out that nobody cares, it hurts me more, until I found myself with no motivation, I stopped to enjoy drawing.
the only thing i did is to go and check if there's something new.. maybe a miracle happened...
till I figured it out, that its just a waste of time, i'm 21, I need to get money so I'll be able to live like a normal person and all this art dream thing only making me to waste my time and feel sad.
so I decided to end it, for me, so i'll stop wasting my time on pretending that I achieved something. i need to find something new, something real that will make me happy as art did many time ago.
I even started to think about leaving the computer compliantly, close all the profiles i have... so I wont think about it anymore, but I'm still not completely sure about it.
Hope you'll understand.
thanks for all the support!
I hope people will still find a way to reach this gallery and enjoy it.
Val no longer known as daskull.
FTFW!
